pour ma cherie amour

It hurts the most when you can actually feel your heart breaking...and can’t cry hard enough for you to hear me.....

how i hate those invisible thin line that keep us separated..
how i wish i could feel your warmth lips..
the memories of your body next to mine..as your firm hand touches me....will stayed forever in my mind..
how i loved to see your face..
your smile..
and..the way you look at me..it really means everything..
your tender eyes..it tells anything that word in the world couldn't represent..
but my favorite is....when it says" i adore you"

"My cherie amour, lovely as a summer day
My cherie amour, distant as the milky way
My cherie amour.......
You're the only one that I adore
You're the only one my heart beats for
How I wish that you were mine..
In a cafe or sometimes on a crowded street
I've been near you, but you have never noticed me
My cherie amour, won't you tell me how could you ignore
That behind that little smile I wore
How I wish that you were mine"
my cherie amour-stevie wonder

my new D-SLR

after looking,asking,wondering,considering,thinking,researching,and so on..lol
i finally settle my heart up, on the CANON EOS 1000 D as my first D-SLR CAMERA, it is highly recommendable for an entry level D-SLR user. i have a long thought before choosing one of many entry level D-SLR camera..
i found this helpful camera review site while i am searching (googling) :D for what camera would fits me most..

but,in the end..

"YOUR CAMERA DOESN'T MATTER.."
Your equipment DOES NOT affect the quality of your image. The less time and effort you spend worrying about your equipment the more time and effort you can spend creating great images. The right equipment just makes it easier, faster or more convenient for you to get the results you need.
"THE BEST CAMERA ITS THE ONE THAT'S WITH YOU"

i attach some picture that i captured with my EOS 1000 D below
snap shooting my mother while eating her passion fruit passionately teasing my cat with flash (she look pretty annoyed) and this last picture are taken by my boyfriend..i really love the light effects..it looks like a thousand needle..
*i just resizing this image to make uploading process easier :D

ANOREXIC BEAUTY

*dying to be thin*
The girl of my nightmares,
Erotic and skull-faced.

Anorexic beauty,
Feather-weight perfection,
Anorexic beauty,
Underweight Goddess.
anorexic beauty-pulp


"Thinness leads to death and it is anything but beautiful."
Isabelle caro

beautiful woman with black dress above are ana carolina reston,a Brazilians model who died at age 21 because of her killing diets (which just by eating tomatoes and apples only). she suffered a complex anorexia and bulimia, lead to multiple organ failure and causing her death.she become anorexic in 2001 since she was told that she was fat. generally i thought almost every girls would go tho the extreme and just stop eating when she being told that she was fat, slowly tend to anorexia or other eating disorder, especially when it comes from her special ones :(

I was completely shock when i read out an anorexia and bulimia articles,it was really triggering, my emotion .some part of me wanting it, as i always thought it was the easiest way to get thin and later i also found out as an easiest way to meet our creator faster, lol,but happily i still have some part of me whom refused the will of anorexia as hard as i can. my intention at first when i googling "anorexic beauty" was only to look for some interesting picture which i could put in my blog to decorate notes about that sick anorexic things, that i have already planned to make.the ideas of making this articles are appears when this following words suddenly pop-out in my mind "how come the girls in years 90's-00's were not allowed to eat for the sake of beauties"(i was completely outraged at that time, because i'm insanely starving at 10pm and still i've been told and encouraged not to take some food because...you-know-why..yes,correct!that f**in scale things!).



in my amazement of venturing of how deadly eating disorder could be, i found a really inspiring word from www.2medusa.com (an anti-ana/mia blog -ana stands for anorexia&mia for bulimia),this are the word..
"the media has been conditioning women for so long to make us feel there is something wrong with us if we are not super skinny.”
*in several cases, i thought not only the media but our opposite sex (male) were one of the biggest contributor to make it even worser if we have a little excess fat/flesh under our skins.
for me, my self i am a 10-12 size girls,with normal body mass index (you can calculate yours here). still i was consider too fat for most of the people. it was really frustrating to be the "fat one" which automatically labeled as unattractive :(
the frustrating feeling wont stop there and grows bigger by the time you constantly tried to reduce amount of your food, striving to resist your hunger and ended with.."I'm not lessen my weight!!!!"
but,somehow i always put myself into someone whose not blinded by thinness perfection idea, in my own opinion, the sexy, attractive and seducing girls are the one who had a little bit more flesh under her skins and fresh not one with pale and sick appearance.

The truth is—a woman can be beautiful at any shape or size
www.2medusa.com

*i took those quote because it was highly inspire able and raise our self confident :)
and also to remind some fussy guys out there that your woman/every woman are beautiful, try to love her the way she are, and not hurting her feeling..woman are sensitive and once you said that she was fat, which is more sounds like ugly nowadays they probably would gone for everything to loosen up their weight. please..don't try to change her..just consider of her health if she was to fat/too thin..

*aren't the beauty icon Marilyn Monroe look great, tempting and fresh on the picture above?love the picture so much :)

Live Life to the Fullest

"every woman should have four pets in her life.
a mink in her closet
a jaguar in her garage
a tiger in her bed
and..
a jackass who pays for everything"
Paris Hilton

HAPPINESS ONLY REAL WHEN IT SHARED-alexanders supertramp

"A MOTHER'S LOVE FOR HER CHILD IS LIKE NOTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD.
it knows no law, no pity,
it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path."
agatha christie

for that unconditional love you gave me since i am still in your womb, none of words in this world could represent how much thankful i am to you mom..for my mom..you are the GREATEST MOTHER IN THE UNIVERSE.. i wish GOD give me a chance to make you happy and filled your day with everything you ever wanted in your life,also make it full with smile and joy.. I LOVE YOU MOM :)
i realized that more than once in your life I've make you worry,furious and disappointed..mom..i am really- really sorry..you are the person whom really care about me and willing to sacrifice anything for me..i know from the bottom of your heart and in every prayer that you do..you just wanting the best for me..thank you mom.. :)

A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life to be thankful for a good one.

Mae West

As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age,
There is one thing that will never change. . .

I will always keep falling in love with you..

**love you forever & ever beiby**

Without friends no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods.

Aristotle

joyful moment

and a TOAST of happiness

"Friends don't quit"

shaggy-scooby doo

friends don't quit shaggy says to scooby..this quote really meant something to me.. i do believe on that word,that friends do not quit.. after years knowing somebody else personally and shared many thoughts,feeling,laughter,tears, and happiness sincerely.. it's just happen by itself that the person become important in our life and have a irreplaceable special place in our heart.. even after having different path and follow a different way in life,we're ever crossed each other life once..tons of thankful words for each of my beloved friends, who has accompanied me in my most wonderful moment in life and in my most darknes s hour..and also my deepest apologize sent from the bottom of my heart if i ever hurt your feeling..i am terribly sorry..i realized as a mere human i have made a lot of mistakes.. although we may not have chance to spend time as much as we wished to be and shared a wonderful moment together in the future but i do pray for your happiness.. live long and prosper..god bless you all :)

Our perfect companions never have fewer than four feet.
Colette
met Milo..my precious companion&part of my family ,she's surely know how to make me missed her..she is cute and adorable with her gentle fur :)
for the last quote, i put this one..this is funny..since i like cats and dislike people who don't..lol

"People that hate cats will come back as mice in their next life."
Faith Resnick

LOVE II

MARRIED MAN

in every relationship obstacles are always occur in every way,sometimes it drive us mad..one of this obstacles may form in a presence of a third person in a relationship. it is really irritating and turn our emotion upside down like we've been caught in a whirlwind. some part of the writing below are taken from one of my favorite song ever...
(i modified a bit..because i want to give the view from a young girl who became a married man mistress)..

this are originally married girl lyrics by the slacker (but i just take a part of it and change it into a married man) :)

You know, I told him: "that only trouble",
but that just made it double.
More intriguing than the conversation,
I said: "I'll meet you at the station".

Still I couldn't help but think,
as I drank my beer to meet him,
"What the hell am I doing here
and what the hell am I gonna say?"

Married man don't you wanna
smoke a little marijuana?
Take some time and have a drink
and think about what you gonna do to me?

Married man ain't you worried,
if our love is kinda hurried?
That you'll be left wanting more
in the time after your woman has murdered me?

"Baby, when I saw you, I knew that I was a goner.
And all those things I meant to say, well,
I just forgot in our first kiss".

A good marriage would be between a blind wife and a deaf husband.

Michel de Montaigne